Gambling??

i might look like CASINO kaki where i visit Genting kinda often...
may be an average of once a month ba...
but i'm not going there for casino...
i dont like to gamble...
i only put small bet even during the CNY...

i dont mind to gamble for fun in CNY...
as the culture of Chinese...
but i always put the lowest bet...
just want to join the big group, not thinking of winning the bet...

currently putting the biggest bet of my life...
i kinda impressed on myself where i dare to follow...
i "call" the bet...
now i'm finished the 3rd bet of the texas holdem...
where we can see there are 3 cards on the table and next card coming up...
i'm not in the total "loss" position...
it is still possible for me...
but...
no one know what will happen until the next card is on the table...
kinda hard to "FOLD" dy...
since i decided to "call" the 2nd bet...
i DECIDED...
i'll try my best...
wish me good luck...

i get into the hardest bet of my life...
never be in this kind of situation before...
i enjoy it yet...
there are still many "hard" part...

no matter what happen...
i have to accept it...
i putting out everything i can...
just for this bet...
after this...
i got to focus on OUR future...or MY future...